FAIL!

"I know God has the perfect ____ for you!" I call this statement the "Universal Christian Answer," we can call it "UCA" for short. UCA can be applied as a band aide in any situation. UCA can  be used as a conversation filler when you have nothing else to say. It can also be used to encourage a person going through a crisis. However, UCA is usually the prelude of bad news, which typically is something like: "I'm sorry, but we just prayed and decided that ____  (is/are) not the right fit for you."

My first encounter of UCA was when I was 18. I had just gotten a job at a Christian based art supply store. About 2 weeks later I was laid off, even though the official reason was because they couldn't afford to keep me, I believe that the true reason was because of my tardiness… not going to lie… even though I loved the Job, I was not very good at being on time… this is something I had to learn the hard way. I remember heading to work to open shop to find my employer at the front locked gate with his wife waiting to greet me. They handed me an envelope with my first and only paycheck (added an extra week and a half salary… which I can't complain about) and said "I'm sorry, but we prayed and decided that we are not the right fit for you. I'm sure God has the perfect Job for you, it's just not us." I put on my brave face, shook their hands, and thanked them for their time. I was heart broken. Later, I called my discipler at the time, just to hear "I'm sorry to hear that, Rosie! I know God has the perfect job for you!"  (...seriously, people?)

Ever since then, every time someone uses UCA, I automatically see a bold, neon red sign flashing over the person that says "FAIL". Since, then I have heard UCA for every circumstance I have gone through. All you have to do is fill in the blank with "School", "Job", "home", "Man" or "Woman", ect.  What's your blank spot in the UCA??

To say the least… I'm tired of UCA. For once, I would like someone to be genuine and real. UCA is over used. It has become a lazy way to say we care without actually caring. UCA is part of a culture that Jesus people should have no part in.  How about saying and doing something  like praying over the person while they are there. Or saying something truly meaningful. How about a hug and simply saying, "I'll keep you in my prayers." It doesn't take much to be real and show that you care. I understand that you want to encourage people after you've rejected them, but after hearing UCA so many times… it has lost it's meaningfulness. I'm not saying, don't use it at all because, we all know that it is a true statement; God is faithful, he is Jahova Jira, he will provide. All I'm saying is, use it sparingly. It is possible to declare that God will provide without using UCA. UCA is not meant to be a standardized statement. It is meant to encourage. 

Happy

Dear Readers,

As you may very well know, I am very used to failed plans.I regret to inform you that I would be dishonest with you if I said that My Dieting plan has been successful thus far. The truth is, the reason why I haven't written anything in the last couple weeks is because I have had nothing to report. I'm sure that one or two of you may have suspected this… I'm not very good at hiding my failures haha… Although I haven't been dieting these couple weeks I definitely have been exercising, which is good because it feels good to be active.   I wish to God I were able to hold up my plans for dieting but for these types of things, timing is everything. Unfortunately, I have no money even though I just got a job and any food we have in the house doesn't exactly follow the diet plan… so for the moment I am S.O. L. Eventually I will definitely get back to this diet but for now I'm okay with playing the cards I've been dealt.

 Some people have asked me why I haven't applied for "The Biggest Loser," before, I really couldn't come up with a legitimate excuse, but I will tell you now why I am hesitant to do such a thing. I abhor reality television.  I do not like the idea of subjecting myself to being someone's Monday night entertainment.  And anyone who would do this is obviously desperate, depressed, self destructive, unconfident and dislike themselves a great deal. Since I really don't have any of these issues, It makes no sense for me to take part of the humiliation. I love the person that I am, even though, yes, I am over weight, I honestly don't let it affect my life. For the time being, I am for the most part healthy (other than the cold I am currently fighting), I am beautiful, talented, surprisingly agile and strong (would have no problem running a 15-18 minute mile run[not as fast as I used to be]if I was asked),currently don't have a love life but it's by choice, and I have tons of hopes and dreams for the future that I am VERY optimistic about.  In short, like I've said, I am very happy with who I am. 

I look to the sky never knowing if what I believe is actually going to come to be.  Sometimes I feel as though God was playing with my life like a child plays with a toy never realizing the damage that he is causing. Every opportunity that passes me by I wonder why… Why is it that I can’t be given a chance to show who and what I can do.  Every day I pray for a sign that there is God out there who actually cares about what I am going through but I fail to see those he places in front of me, If you could even call those signs. How do I know that the things I see and hear aren’t just my own wishful thinking that I of all people could actually make a mark on the world? Could it be that I really wasn’t made for anything big? What if I am supposed to be just another person living her life day to day? What if I am just a normal person that can’t achieve anything other than just being alive? 

Beginning with a Struggle

So today is day one of my plan. I can not say that it didn't start off with a struggle. I got up this morning and my first instinct is to pick up a bowl of cereal and start munching. It took me a moment of me looking in the fridge for the milk for me to realize that at the moment I'm supposed to be on a strict diet.
For the next two weeks the "Do Not Eat" list is pretty large:
1. Margarine
2. Sugar
3. Oils or Fats (except Flaxseed Oil)
4. Grains, Bread, and Cereal
5. Starchy Veggies like Potatoes
6. All Dairy
This is definitely going to be a challenge for me. Eating sweets has never been a huge desire for me but all the sudden it's like because I know that eating them is a sin, I want it even more. Even now I have the temptation to lunge over at the brownie bites that my mom's boyfriend keeps near the computer... Don't worry though, I will restrain myself  and wait to eat till my next meal time... haha.
As for exercise I've already done my set ups and "girly" push ups (I have to work myself up to being able to do them regularly again), Billy Blanks 30 minute workout, and I plan on taking a long walk later in the day. Overall, I think it's been a great start. We'll see how I hold out for these next two weeks :)

Time For Something New

Dear Readers,
     I think I am finally to the point in my development In Christ to be confident with the person God has created me to be. That being said, I would like to inform you of a change of pace in my Blog entries. As of Monday, I am beginning a new stepping stone in my life.
       I am 21 and will be turning 22 in February, 5'8 and currently weigh in at 380lbs. I am not ashamed of this as I have not let this affect my life style. Also, even though many Christians believe that part of being a good Christian is taking good care of your body (as the temple… which I am not entirely opposed to when the bible verse isn't being used to condemn)  I have a strong belief that your weight is NOT a reflection of your faith and who you truly are. Let me be clear… only God can be the judge of the matters of the heart. My reasons for wanting to lose weight is mainly for health reasons.  I have realized that  at age 25 my metabolism will start to slow down which will make it even harder to lose weight, then harder still once I start having children. Also, a wide range of health problems including heart disease, cancer, and diabetes run in my family. I have none of these but would like to avoid having to deal with it when I get older.  According to the Military, the healthy weight for someone my height is 160 lbs. I have estimated that in the course of 3 years I need to lose 220lbs.
Why am I telling you all this?
     I will begin chronicling my journey to a healthy lifestyle. I will share both my struggles and my triumphs as they come along and pictures of my progress once a month. Part of the reason for me blogging my journey is for accountability and to encourage myself and others who might be going on the same journey. My problem with changing my lifestyle is never knowledge, it is always implementing the information.  I hope you will support me on my journey  as it will definitely be a difficult one however rewarding.
     I will be doing this as healthy and natural as possible. I will also be doing this WITHOUT expensive dieting programs such as weight watchers. I have found that they are a complete waste of money especially when you have all the tools you need at home. All the information and resources are out there, you just need to know where to look. For me, I will be using second hand books, work out videos (Billy Blanks Boot Camp, Pilates with Denise Austin,  or whatever I find on the internet), and I also have TCC's gym at my disposal.
The Plan!!!
Reading materials I will be using:
1. The Fat Flush
2. The Eat Clean Diet
Exercise routine:
1. 1 day off a week (Sunday)
2. Everyday will start off with stretching, push-ups, and crunches (no matter what I'm doing)
3. Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday: Cardio
1. Running, Jogging, or walking
2. Pilates, Yoga, or Swimming
4. Every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday: Weight Training
1. Tuesday: Upper body
2. Thursday: Both (main focus is the core)
3. Saturday: Lower Body
      Now that you know my plan, I look forward to blogging again on Monday… Until then, God Bless!

Can you hear me now??

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPwPo-IAQ-E

I just got out of a season of having a hard time devoting myself to prayer. 

Ever feel like you are on a cell phone with bad reception, trying to talk to God?? One moment you are having a very clear signal and are having a great conversation with God then you travel through a tunnel and the call drops without you noticing... You end up having a one sided conversation till you realize that it's way too quiet, you check your phone and realize you've been talking to yourself... (how embarrassing!) You call back and all you get is static... every now and then a few distorted syllables will break through the static (your phone's fault... Not God's... he has a perfect signal). Both You and God yell through the phone like the guy in the Verizon Commercials "Can you hear me now?" When you finally can hear God you both sigh in relief and maybe laugh a little the poor signal you experienced because now you can say all you want to each other.

This describes my struggle to a "T".

Let me break down this analogy into 2 parts for you.

The Dropped Call: I find this happens, when you stop listening to God and become too focused on yourself. I think during this dropped call season your faith starts to be challenged. "Did God even hear everything I just said to him?" "What if I call over and over again, yet still can't get a hold of him?" "What if I call him and I do get a hold of him? I don't want him to just tell me how selfish I am for wanting to get to know more of him for myself rather than talking to him on behalf of other people."

My recent experience with this is relatively new... I was listening to my fears and not even bothering calling him back. I think we all should  be reminded every now and then by these verse's

~ James 1:6-8 "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does."

~ Luke 15:4-6 "Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.'"

~John 10:1-5  "I tell you the truth, the man who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber. The man who enters by the gate is the shepherd of his sheep. The watchman opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice. But they will never follow a stranger; in fact, they will run away from him because they do not recognize a stranger's voice."

My other experience with this experience is that "Fear" is much bigger than it makes it self to be... Which reminds me of this episode of "Buffy the vampire slayer" Of course it's a Halloween episode were fear is being manifested into this realm. After much research the Scooby Gang is ready to slay the demon. When they finally face "Fear" The find him to be 2 inches tall screaming things that were supposed to scare them... Buffy just replies to him by squishing him with her foot... Giles after peering into his book says "Oh dear.." Willow replies "What is it Giles?"  " I should have read the caption next to the picture... 'Actual size'"

I think we all fail to read the captions next to the pictures which is the bible... It clearly tells us that there is nothing to fear because first of all we don't face this life alone thanks to the blood of Jesus Which covers everything. Secondly that we have the power through that same blood to overcome that fear! woot! Another Thing is "It's not selfish to know more of God. Because if you know more of God you function more fully as his servant" - Adam Narciso (paraphrased... Thanks Adam! Sure encouraged me!) So, really the only cure for this season is stepping out in FAITH making that phone call you've been so afraid to make.

The Static: I like to call this season "Uncertainty", "Doubt", "Dry", or as many people like to call it "The Desert". Unfortunately, this is a season that ALL Christian's go through. This is where you hear little of God's voice and when you do hear his voice you are unsure of whether you heard correctly. I personally prefer the Dropped Call season to the Static because at least with the Dropped Call you are certain of one thing... That you need to hear God's voice but you are afraid to make the call. I've gone through a season like this (VERY RECENTLY) were you think God says one thing but really he said something else or he didn't say anything at all and it was wishful thinking. After a while I had to step back from everything and evaluate what was going on. In a season like this I think it's a good idea to go on a sabbatical... or have some HEALTHY isolation time (yes, there is a difference). When all the noise was gone it was easier to hear what God was actually trying to tell me if anything (which usually something much simpler than we expected). I think this is why so many elders and disciplers stress the importance of a quiet-time. If we don't consistently seek God's voice, we get stuck in long season's like this... all I can say about this is... Oy... I'm definitely having an interesting time with this subject. I think the big decision that needs to be made on this subject is "What is more important to you? Spending time on Facebook or hearing from your daddy who has something important to tell you?"

Believe me, after you actually get these two seasons out of the way amazing things happen! How about changed lives for the better? What about being filled with the holy spirit and knowing a Joy that you have never known before? How about having a better revelation of who God is?? If those are the rewards, I'm on board... I'm making that phone call now!!!

Good Intentions with Wrong Motives

Intention: an act or instance of determining mentally upon some action or result.

the end or object intended; purpose.

Motive: something that causes a person to act in a certain way, do a certain thing, etc.; incentive.

the goal or object of a person's actions

causing, or tending to cause, motion.

prompting to action.

to motivate.


Faith: confidence or trust in a person or thing.
belief that is not based on proof.
the trust in God and in His promises asmade through Christ and the Scriptures by which humans arejustified or saved.


Fear:  a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain,etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid

ah... another day in the life of Rosie

Warning: Blog entry contains controversial issues... If you don't like it you can stop reading at any time.

So, it's been a while since my last blog entry. I've been hesitant to write anything because it seems like every time I post something I have a big announcement. Unfortunately, I feel like an idiot, a fool, a lier, and indecisive. For the last couple months God has taken me through a lot including, getting my settlement for my leg injury and filing bankruptcy. In the midst of two major financial circumstances, I have had to make decisions based on those circumstances including trips, schooling, and ministry. I still don't have it together. I am tired of telling everyone my plans only to disappoint or change my mind. Hence forth I do not have any plans... Tennessee is down the drain because I let the money fly out of my hands, Northwest University for the same reason, Catalyst was decided against because I was gonna use the money to go back to Northwest, and IHOP- FMA went down the drain for now because I don't really believe in all the things that IHOP does... (not including prayer... I'm still pretty firm on that and like the 24/7 prayer room a LOT)

Now about Truth, it's ugly.

I find money and clothes is a funny thing.
About Money: When someone finds out you have money they will be your best friend until that money runs out then they are out of your life and want nothing to do with you. People come out of the woodwork saying that you owe them money for "that one time they helped you out" Even parents are no exception to this phenomenon. I will not tell you how much money I have spent on my mom (out of embarrassment of being manipulated) because she felt that I owed her it. Then there are the people who leach off of you because they refuse to stop being lazy and expect you to provide for them.

Now for Clothes: Wow... I never knew that I had soooo many friends. I get a new wardrobe and all the sudden people who I NEVER talk to want to know how I am doing and what's going on in my life. Maybe it has something to do with the appearance of riches. Or maybe people are too shallow to recognize that you are the same person with or without the trendy clothes.  I have to admit that I am really liking the attention... but what if I reverted back to my orange sweat shirt, t-shirt, genes, and flip flops?? Do you want to hang out with me now??

Here's a little truth about what who I am. I tend to use God as an excuse not to move on a decision or to justify a belief that is wrong. Using bible verses to justify myself is wrong and it makes me just as bad as a prosperity preacher. Another truth is I am not too sure of what I believe anymore. I know there is a God and I believe what he says in the bible is correct I know he moves in mysterious ways, I know he has the best for me in mind, I know that he has a plan amidst all the toil in this world. I don't know is what he wants of me. I really have NO idea what I want to be when I grow up, I have no stable income, I have failed pretty much anything I have ever tried, I live with my mom, I am easily confused, I am very sarcastic, I am a woman but I don't do very many girly stuff... I prefer to hang out with guys but that doesn't mean that I am one of them, and I am not going to try to impress you with a list of accomplishments even if it does come up in a conversation.

My church emphasizes ministry as the only way to serve God "being the lamp-stand on a hill" I am getting frustrated at the intolerance for atheists, gays, people of various religions, divorce, and people who do abort their children. I am also getting frustrated at inflation of political situations such as the recent "National Day of Prayer", new books and movies coming out (they're fiction... get over it.), abortion, Gay rights, blah blah blah...
 I guess according to you, I am going to hell because I don't believe in the same things you do. If I am going to be ostracized for saying thus I don't really care at this point. I refuse to be manipulated to believe and  act on things because one man or woman feels inferior to those who won't CONFORM to the Christian belief system. As much as I believe that Christ is the only way to heaven I believe that the church right now has a sense of Manifest Destiny that really doesn't care who they step on in the process... just to "win souls to the kingdom of God." Get over yourselves and see who you are hurting before it is too late... people are not going to come to God if you are shunning them because they don't believe in the same things as you.. The world is not black and white as many Christians believe... It is very colorful and your refusal to keep an open mind is very contrary to the gospel. I'm not saying that I am not guilty of this because I am... It is only recently that I have realized what a jack ass I have been. If we don't have an open mind we fail to realize that there is more than one right answer... or maybe NO ONE is right... think about that for a moment... what if we're ALL wrong??

Realized Dream/ Revelation

I am a nervous wreck... When I was a little girl my biggest dream was hunting down my father and hopefully have him walk me down the aisle on my wedding day, Finally have my daddy daughter dance, being treated like a princess by a man in my life that truly loves me unconditionally, and soooo much more that comes along with knowing my dad.
Right now after my dad finding ME I am on my way to Chattanooga, TN to see him for the first time since I was about 3. He found me when I was 19 about 3 days after I got hit by the motorcycle and the day of the first surgery. It really hadn't sunk in until now... wow!!! When I realized that my life long dream is finally coming true, all I could do is cry... just pure Joy that my daddy would seek me out... I didn't have to do anything to get him to come to me... It was my one desire to get to know him... This is a true picture of how God pursues me... he chases after ME I really don't have to do much but desire to know him. I don't have to worry about how to please him to convince him to come closer... he's already pursuing me!!! My Abba is amazing and I am proud to call him my God!!!

What if?

I would be lying if I did not say that I am scared right now. For the last couple months I have been absolutely sure that God wants me to go to IHOP in the fall and that God has asked me to do Catalyst this summer. But lately I've begun to second guess myself. As I'm sure you are very aware by now, my mom isn't so keen on these plans; she believes it's a waste of time and money. Even though we don't fight as much about it any more, she still takes every chance to manipulate me into believing that I am doing the wrong thing. I love my mom but I wish I could find a way for her to understand that I really am doing what I know that God is asking me to do. I don't think I've ever come against such controversy with mom about something. Unfortunately, my mom isn't the only mountain I have to climb this season.

I have never been a person to believe in fate or a destiny of some kind. I think this has mostly been because I didn't like the idea of not being able to control the person who I want to be or do the things I want to do. It scares me to think that every move I make was predestined to happen. Last week, I was talking to Adam Narciso about preparations for Catalyst and I guess I received news I wasn't exactly expecting. Adam told be that there were a few questions about my application and that someone was going to call me to ask me about it and then they would pray about me being in the program. Later, I was telling someone about doing Catalyst this summer and she had told me of a prophecy over catalyst or more so the young people who would be a part of Catalyst. I was told that These 50 young people are chosen ones that would be the starters of this "Pacific Rim Movement" or in other words a Revival for this generation.

This prophecy is what scares me the most. Yes, without a doubt I want to see young and old people all over the world to come to know Jesus and the freedom that comes with knowing him; But this is gonna happen through me??  I completely believe God is going to bring that revival and soon, but how is it that I'm going to be involved in this. I feel like I have nothing to offer. My guitar and singing is mediocre at best (even though I desire to be a worship leader one day), I don't speak well in front of people... I struggle to even have a normal conversation with people... It's always awkward because I have nothing good to say, because of this people don't listen to me or even want to hear what I have to say, I didn't really grow up in the church, I have no real connections with the "Prominent" people of the church, and the list goes on.

Some people that I really admire are (even if it is from afar...) I tend to check up on these people's facebook and blogs (if they have one) just to see what they are doing for God today... Adam and Jenny Narciso, Tyler Connell, Shane Faye,  Aaron and Ronda Barker, and Jason and Gretchen Bradley... For a few specific reasons. They are living in their callings, They are confident in God, They always seem so joyful, They live God filled lives, They speak VERY well, Worship and Pray with all of their hearts and above all live a passion filled life. When I look at these people's lives I know I can never measure up. I just can't. Now I'm not putting these people on a pedastool because I know that by all means they are not perfect.

I guess in short I am afraid that even if I am part of this "Chosen Generation" that I am not worthy, and will fail all the expectations that everyone has. I'm afraid that I would become nothing but another walking talking hypcrocity; making a fool of everyone, and not just myself. Above all I am afraid of failing God. I want to live my life fully and completely in God. I know with plenty of experience of how things can turn out without God's presence and it sucks.

Not my plan!

My last blog I mentioned that was going to Kansas City this summer... That is still kinda true in a way... Only in a different way than I expected. I have wanted to be a worship leader for a long time so Forerunner Music Academy (FMA) seems like it's perfect for me and lately after a settlement playing in my favor it seems as though that dream is just within reach. I have had people tell me, don't you want to delay the time a bit? Maybe God wants you to learn something more before you go. My response is always "of course he does... blah blah blah" and never really took it to heart.

One thing about me is I am a constant dreamer and never really wait to find out the details before I decide to go for something. So when some one mentions Catalyst an evangelistic training school through my church http://catalystschool.com/, I just shrug it off... "God doesn't want me to do that, he has opened the door for me to go to Kansas City!" I never really think maybe some doors that are opened for me I shouldn't walk through, or maybe I should wait a bit longer till I'm a little wiser to walk through that door. I took a trip to seattle last saturday to hang out with some friends that I hadn't seen in a couple months and it was fun! I am a busser so I had a lot of time to think about things and listen to God about my current situation.

One word that I absolutely despise is "Wait" and that was precisely what God was telling me to do. Next, what surprised me more was what he said next... "Do Catalyst this summer!" Are you kidding me God?! That's not part of the plan! So I dissmissed what I heard.

The next day, I was talking to Annie Peterson about me going to Kansas City this summer... What did she say? "Did you think about maybe postponing the trip till the fall and doing Catalyst during the summer?"

God cracks me up sometimes lol... I hear it twice and don't listen finally he tells me a third time... Maybe I should be obedient... Just maybe God has something for me to learn this summer. I finally registered for Catalyst today and  regardless of what the plan is, I am excited to see what God does through this.

I Am Beautiful!!

The day before my birthday I ran into a friend from Youth Group that hadn't been there for a long time. For privacy's sake I won't paste her name all over the internet so I will call her Jessica. Jessica grew up with out a mom or dad so she has been in and out of foster and group homes for the majority of her life, however she takes great pride in telling people about her mom before she passed. As a girl often does, she desired to be loved. When she couldn't find that love through a father or a mother she turned to men to fulfill this desire. However, when this desire still wasn't fulfilled through men she turned to women. This brought a lot of shame to her life and she new that something needed to change. Even though she had heard it said time and time again that God is Love, how could she truly believe it? There has never been anyone in her life to give her the evidence of that fact. Any man that she ever met only wanted her for sex in short they treated her as a "Sofisticated Ho". Because Jessica was so used to being treated like this she never questioned it. Up until recently she never realized that she was never intended to be treated like this.


The truth is Jessica reminded me of myself before I came to learn of God's love for me. It's too easy to forget what life was like before God restored me to the extent that he has. I operated through a lot of abandonment and rejection. I didn't believe that I was beautiful at all. I still struggle with a lot of significance issues and question whether or not I am beautiful.. In fact, I still sometimes look into the mirror and hate the way I look. Some verses have been really helping me lately especially with me trying to teach Jessica what I've learned in the last few years. I don't want to be one of those people who says one thing but acts completely different. 


This week I've been reflecting on a couple verses that have been really on my heart.

"But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."" ~ 1 sam 16:7

 "For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." ~Eph 2:10

"sing o daughter of zion, o Israel! Be glad and rejoice with all your heart, o daughter of Jerusalem!" ~ Zeph 3:14

 "All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you." ~ S.O.S 4:7 

These really spoke to me because so often I look at myself how Men and Women look at people in this world... The world will tell me I don't have long enough hair, I'm not wearing the right clothes, I'm too fat, I don't wear the right amount of makeup. I have to learn to look at myself through the God perspective. I have to tell myself that I am a beautiful daughter of the lord and that I am his masterpeice. And as God's masterpiece I am perfectly created! I AM Beautiful!