FAIL!

"I know God has the perfect ____ for you!" I call this statement the "Universal Christian Answer," we can call it "UCA" for short. UCA can be applied as a band aide in any situation. UCA can  be used as a conversation filler when you have nothing else to say. It can also be used to encourage a person going through a crisis. However, UCA is usually the prelude of bad news, which typically is something like: "I'm sorry, but we just prayed and decided that ____  (is/are) not the right fit for you."

My first encounter of UCA was when I was 18. I had just gotten a job at a Christian based art supply store. About 2 weeks later I was laid off, even though the official reason was because they couldn't afford to keep me, I believe that the true reason was because of my tardiness… not going to lie… even though I loved the Job, I was not very good at being on time… this is something I had to learn the hard way. I remember heading to work to open shop to find my employer at the front locked gate with his wife waiting to greet me. They handed me an envelope with my first and only paycheck (added an extra week and a half salary… which I can't complain about) and said "I'm sorry, but we prayed and decided that we are not the right fit for you. I'm sure God has the perfect Job for you, it's just not us." I put on my brave face, shook their hands, and thanked them for their time. I was heart broken. Later, I called my discipler at the time, just to hear "I'm sorry to hear that, Rosie! I know God has the perfect job for you!"  (...seriously, people?)

Ever since then, every time someone uses UCA, I automatically see a bold, neon red sign flashing over the person that says "FAIL". Since, then I have heard UCA for every circumstance I have gone through. All you have to do is fill in the blank with "School", "Job", "home", "Man" or "Woman", ect.  What's your blank spot in the UCA??

To say the least… I'm tired of UCA. For once, I would like someone to be genuine and real. UCA is over used. It has become a lazy way to say we care without actually caring. UCA is part of a culture that Jesus people should have no part in.  How about saying and doing something  like praying over the person while they are there. Or saying something truly meaningful. How about a hug and simply saying, "I'll keep you in my prayers." It doesn't take much to be real and show that you care. I understand that you want to encourage people after you've rejected them, but after hearing UCA so many times… it has lost it's meaningfulness. I'm not saying, don't use it at all because, we all know that it is a true statement; God is faithful, he is Jahova Jira, he will provide. All I'm saying is, use it sparingly. It is possible to declare that God will provide without using UCA. UCA is not meant to be a standardized statement. It is meant to encourage. 

Happy

Dear Readers,

As you may very well know, I am very used to failed plans.I regret to inform you that I would be dishonest with you if I said that My Dieting plan has been successful thus far. The truth is, the reason why I haven't written anything in the last couple weeks is because I have had nothing to report. I'm sure that one or two of you may have suspected this… I'm not very good at hiding my failures haha… Although I haven't been dieting these couple weeks I definitely have been exercising, which is good because it feels good to be active.   I wish to God I were able to hold up my plans for dieting but for these types of things, timing is everything. Unfortunately, I have no money even though I just got a job and any food we have in the house doesn't exactly follow the diet plan… so for the moment I am S.O. L. Eventually I will definitely get back to this diet but for now I'm okay with playing the cards I've been dealt.

 Some people have asked me why I haven't applied for "The Biggest Loser," before, I really couldn't come up with a legitimate excuse, but I will tell you now why I am hesitant to do such a thing. I abhor reality television.  I do not like the idea of subjecting myself to being someone's Monday night entertainment.  And anyone who would do this is obviously desperate, depressed, self destructive, unconfident and dislike themselves a great deal. Since I really don't have any of these issues, It makes no sense for me to take part of the humiliation. I love the person that I am, even though, yes, I am over weight, I honestly don't let it affect my life. For the time being, I am for the most part healthy (other than the cold I am currently fighting), I am beautiful, talented, surprisingly agile and strong (would have no problem running a 15-18 minute mile run[not as fast as I used to be]if I was asked),currently don't have a love life but it's by choice, and I have tons of hopes and dreams for the future that I am VERY optimistic about.  In short, like I've said, I am very happy with who I am. 

I look to the sky never knowing if what I believe is actually going to come to be.  Sometimes I feel as though God was playing with my life like a child plays with a toy never realizing the damage that he is causing. Every opportunity that passes me by I wonder why… Why is it that I can’t be given a chance to show who and what I can do.  Every day I pray for a sign that there is God out there who actually cares about what I am going through but I fail to see those he places in front of me, If you could even call those signs. How do I know that the things I see and hear aren’t just my own wishful thinking that I of all people could actually make a mark on the world? Could it be that I really wasn’t made for anything big? What if I am supposed to be just another person living her life day to day? What if I am just a normal person that can’t achieve anything other than just being alive?