I look to the sky never knowing if what I believe is actually going to come to be.  Sometimes I feel as though God was playing with my life like a child plays with a toy never realizing the damage that he is causing. Every opportunity that passes me by I wonder why… Why is it that I can’t be given a chance to show who and what I can do.  Every day I pray for a sign that there is God out there who actually cares about what I am going through but I fail to see those he places in front of me, If you could even call those signs. How do I know that the things I see and hear aren’t just my own wishful thinking that I of all people could actually make a mark on the world? Could it be that I really wasn’t made for anything big? What if I am supposed to be just another person living her life day to day? What if I am just a normal person that can’t achieve anything other than just being alive?