I Am Beautiful!!

The day before my birthday I ran into a friend from Youth Group that hadn't been there for a long time. For privacy's sake I won't paste her name all over the internet so I will call her Jessica. Jessica grew up with out a mom or dad so she has been in and out of foster and group homes for the majority of her life, however she takes great pride in telling people about her mom before she passed. As a girl often does, she desired to be loved. When she couldn't find that love through a father or a mother she turned to men to fulfill this desire. However, when this desire still wasn't fulfilled through men she turned to women. This brought a lot of shame to her life and she new that something needed to change. Even though she had heard it said time and time again that God is Love, how could she truly believe it? There has never been anyone in her life to give her the evidence of that fact. Any man that she ever met only wanted her for sex in short they treated her as a "Sofisticated Ho". Because Jessica was so used to being treated like this she never questioned it. Up until recently she never realized that she was never intended to be treated like this.


The truth is Jessica reminded me of myself before I came to learn of God's love for me. It's too easy to forget what life was like before God restored me to the extent that he has. I operated through a lot of abandonment and rejection. I didn't believe that I was beautiful at all. I still struggle with a lot of significance issues and question whether or not I am beautiful.. In fact, I still sometimes look into the mirror and hate the way I look. Some verses have been really helping me lately especially with me trying to teach Jessica what I've learned in the last few years. I don't want to be one of those people who says one thing but acts completely different. 


This week I've been reflecting on a couple verses that have been really on my heart.

"But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."" ~ 1 sam 16:7

 "For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." ~Eph 2:10

"sing o daughter of zion, o Israel! Be glad and rejoice with all your heart, o daughter of Jerusalem!" ~ Zeph 3:14

 "All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you." ~ S.O.S 4:7 

These really spoke to me because so often I look at myself how Men and Women look at people in this world... The world will tell me I don't have long enough hair, I'm not wearing the right clothes, I'm too fat, I don't wear the right amount of makeup. I have to learn to look at myself through the God perspective. I have to tell myself that I am a beautiful daughter of the lord and that I am his masterpeice. And as God's masterpiece I am perfectly created! I AM Beautiful!