I'm going on my 3rd week living in Lacey and it's been rough. When I moved here, I hit the ground running now the constant need to run as fast as I can is wearing me out; I'm starting to lose momentum. However, the whole time I'm praying to God for more strength to keep moving forward. These last few months have been like a living nightmare and these 3 weeks have been like I've been trying to shake myself awake and convince myself that it's not real and that it'll get better. I'm having a hard time keeping up hope. Out of the 6 interviews I've had I know for sure that 5 have decided not to hire me. This is extremely disheartening. I woke this morning feeling extreemly melancholy and pessimistic. I mean, obviously because I haven't found a job yet, there must be something wrong with me. There has to be something stamped on my face that I can't see that says "Unprofessional and Lazy Worker." I don't get it. The interviews go well but I don't get the call back. What's the point? I might as well give up, right?
NO.
I refuse to believe this. One thing that I am learning in this season is that in all seemingly "hopeless" situations there is still a small mad hope to be found. I think I just need to remind myself of this. I will choose to view life in Gimli's (LOTR) paradigm, "Certain death? Small chance of success? What are we waiting for?" I will keep at the pace I am going until I have found that job. I'm going to cling on to this small mad hope that everything will be okay and I will get through this!
*I might cry a little bit first.... Not that I haven't been doing this in my heart in the first place...*
Check this song out... It is totally an encouragement to me. Things are going up!!
2 door Cinema Club: Something Good Can Work
If you are going through a hard situation too, I hope this is encouraging to you.
<3 Rosie
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